Update on Wearing a Bra

The other day I stated to Jules "Oh yay! Finally!"

She questioned what was going on.

I responded with "I so do NOT want to put this dang bra on."

She laughed.

And I continued "But, to drive the point home, I am going to still do it."

This conversation is a good example of how my bra experiment is going.  If you do not remember, in a previous post, I mentioned that I am trying to wear a bra while dressed as a guy.  The main reason behind this is that I have been contemplating what it would be like to live my life with a body that is a bit more of a blend of the two genders.  More specifically, what would it be like to live my life if I actually developed breasts.

What a cute bra!!! I want it!!

I have no intentions of transitioning, or of even attempting to live more of my life dressed as a woman, but just in my mind, I see myself as a mix between the genders, and when I look at my body I do NOT see a mix of the genders.  Plus Jules and I have been discussing some possible mental benefits of taking hormones.  On occasion I have difficulty with feeling.... I don't know.... satisfied???  ... content???  I don't think I am describing it well...so anywho.... some of the mental benefits of taking hormones have been the most interesting for me.  Some of the body changes, I am WAY more frightened of.  What exactly would my life be like if I had my own, real, actual boobs!

And after only about two weeks, I have come to the conclusion of I DO NOT want real boobs.  Okay, well maybe I want real boobs, but I DO NOT want real boobs even more.  Most specifically because of their permanence.

See...the thing is... that even during these two weeks, I have taken off my bra repeatedly.  I have not worn it while sleeping, nor while swimming, or at the lake, or specific times, interacting with certain people.  Most of those things, I don't care about.... the one that does is me taking it off to interact with certain people.  I still wore 100% female clothes, and went and interacted with them, but I personally chose to not wear the bra.  (Even at an almost no padded, A cup bra, it really makes me look like I have small breasts.)  And when I went and talked with acquaintances, while I felt totally fine and comfortable wearing my female, tank top, short shorts, and shoes, I did not feel comfortable looking like I had breasts.

It also made me think about work, and what would things be like at there?  What I am currently doing gives me very small A cup breasts.  And they are incredibly noticeable!  Like all the time.  Maybe if I chose to wear guy clothes it could potentially help hide it, but not by much.  And when you choose to take steps to create real breasts, unless it is done surgically, you do not get to dictate the size.

So... I chose to take it off on occasion... and actual real breasts are NOT removable... therefore.... I do not want to have my own breasts.  I like the freedom of being able to look like I do not have breasts or that I do have breasts, if I want to.

Sometimes it drives me bonkers thinking about this stuff so much; I often wonder what it feels like to never question your gender.  But at the same time... by continually questioning myself, and experimenting here and there... I feel closer and closer to really knowing who I am and what I like.

I am enjoying the experiment.

I am enjoying the feeling of being tired of wearing a bra.

Too often in my life I feel a pulling... a tugging... a nudging... pushing me to try and be more feminine.  It is like a lightly buzzing sound coming from the ceiling above your favorite warm fuzzy chair.  You are all snuggled up nicely in your yummy chair and yet, there is a small annoying sounding buzz coming from somewhere hidden and try as you might you just can't quite figure out where it is coming from and how the hell to get it to stop!

And so I come up with an experiment to try out having breasts and the current result is that I already have turned that annoying little buzz that says...hey be a bit more feminine... is now saying... hey can we please bit a bit more masculine. Thus confirming a previous theory of mine, I feel best somewhere in the middle.  Too much of one or the other and it begins to bug me.

Thus... I am tired of wearing a bra... but I like being tired of wearing a bra...

Sometimes I think I am SO weird!

Love you!

Love yourselves!

Do you allow yourself the freedom to experiment and figure out who you are?




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Cross Dresser with a Shotgun

The other day I was feeling a bit frisky and like I needed to get out and try something different.  I recently bought an automatic trap thrower and thought, hmm... I have never been trap shooting while cross dressed, so what the heck!  Let's go shooting!

I loaded up the truck and off we went.  Lucky for us we can go shooting in a field that is about 5-10 minutes from our house.  We just pull up, unload, setup, and start shooting.  It is quite fun.  It is also something that I never thought I would be doing about ten years ago.  And I certainly never thought that I would be doing it while cross dressed.

It was not all that different from shooting while dressed as a guy.  Except for a few different areas.

1 - Boobs.  Boobs actually made my shooting better.  In order to shoot well you first need to mount the gun to your shoulder well.  Having boobs made me bring the gun out further, and mount it to my shoulder better.  This made my shooting more accurate.

2 - Hair.  Hair is super hot.  Gosh how I love my regular guy buzz cut.  So much cooler.

3 - Bra straps.  My straps and my tank lace totally bruised up my shoulder.

So that is about that.  Would I do it again.  Possibly.  It was not the best, nor the worst.  It was just different.  I did enjoy pushing myself to get out and do something new and different.

Oh and yeah, I found a hat that actually fits my head while I am wearing a wig.  Fun!

Oh and yeah what an inflammatory title.  I suppose I was just going for the shock value of it.  :)

Love you!  Love yourself!

Get out, try something new.

Explore your world!

Live!

Outfit for ModCloth Uniquely You Campaign

In my outfit collage I have chosen several items that would go well with the main piece, the two piece swim suit.  I love the big floppy hat.  I so have to have a hat if I am out in the sun.  Have I ever told you I had skin cancer??  Yeah, so cover yourself out there people!  I also really like the red polka dot sticker nails, that kind of match with the suit and shoes.  I love the octopus bracelet.  I think it looks really cute with the swim suit theme outfit.  The white glasses look fresh and fun for summer.  I also chose the purse as it was semi-relaxed for the pool or beach.  And lastly, I really like the pull over for using as you are walking the boardwalk as a bit more cover.

I know this is something completely different for my blog.  This is an outfit collage that I did for ModCloth.  They contacted me via email and asked if I would like to be part of the ModCloth Uniquely You campaign.  I was quite thrilled that they contacted me and asked for me to participate.  First and foremost I like to consider myself a style blogger.  I do write quite a bit about trans issues, but really my heart is into style.  So, I wrote back and said, YES, I would love to be part of their campaign.

So the deal was that I was to use Wanelo, and search through the ModCloth pages for ways to style a garment that they sent to me.  I was instructed to pick up to seven items from ModCloth's pages to complement the garment.  I was totally expecting some cute retro dress, but what I got into my inbox surprised the heck out of me.  They sent me the totally cute polka dot two piece swimsuit.  Wow, a swimsuit, talk about being out of my comfort zone!  Whew!

I knew that I had a challenge ahead of me.  Styling a swimsuit is something I had not considered before, besides I had no experience with Wanelo, or creating an outfit collage.  As with most challenges, I dove in and started to figure it all out.  First was Wanelo.  If you have no experience with it, it is a Pinterest type of board, but it is kind of cooler in that when you click on the item it actually takes you to a place that you can actually buy the item from.  That was cool.

Then I had to find the ModCloth page and begin my search for what could work with the cute swimsuit they sent me.  It took some time, but I found some really neat things to work with it.  When I got done, I looked at what I had assembled and thought, yeah I could wear that, and actually, yeah I would LIKE to wear that.  They asked what my inspiration was for the outfit, and that was it really, what would I like to wear.

I then had all of my items ready and had to figure out someway to create a collage.  I turned to Google and found some instructions on how to create a pretty basic collage.  By this time my given time was running out, so I quickly assembled my outfit collage and saved it.  Whew!

Now, I am sitting here and typing this post, trying to get this post up before my given time is up.

So.... Why do this at all?????  One - I like being a style blogger and associating myself with anything style related, Two - this was super fun!  Three - I like a challenge, and this was challenging, Four - If ModCloth likes my outfit they will put up a link to my blog., Five - Why not????

Ooohhhh - also, if you have not checked out ModCloth, do so.  I am not getting anything by advertising for them, but I think they have super cute clothes.  I really like their mix of retro and modern.  I am so going to have to buy items from them, as they totally have a style that I like.  Oh and they have items in real people sizes, not just mini me sizes!

Lastly, I know that most of my readers are here from trans related links, which is totally cool, but some of you seem to not know what style blogging is all about and seem to think that any sort of advertising is going to the dark side.  Well, advertising what we like is partly what style blogging is all about.  I would never recommend a product or company to you that I do not personally like.  I do it mainly to share what I like, because I think that maybe you could enjoy it as well!  :)

Love ya!

Flip Book Outfit Creator

While doing the outfit portion of my July challenge I discovered a big difficulty with putting my outfits together, I couldn't actually look at all of clothes in a very efficient manner.  Most of my clothes are stored in the drawers of my dresser, as shown in this post, and they obviously stacked on top of each other.  If I want to see what I have I used to have to pull out almost all of my clothes just to see what I have.  Now all I do is to flip through the pictures of my clothing items.

I told my wife of my idea and she decided to join me.  We posted up some white paper on the wall, set the camera on the tripod, put on a clothing item, and took a picture.  It did not take nearly as long as we thought it would.

After we were done we printed them out, cut them, and organized them.  I chose to put them together into these groups: dresses, tank tops, tops, bottoms, and shoes.  This is what they look like:

Dresses:

Tank Tops:

Tops:

Bottoms:

Shoes:

What I will then do is to find something I would like to wear and flip through the other books and find something that I think will go with it.  I often try to find a few different options that will work together.  This is what it look like when I put them together.

In total it took probably about 4 to 5 hours to put everything together.  Now that it is done it has helped greatly in me being to put together a variety of outfits which have utilized all the clothes that I own and not just the ones that happen to be in the top of the drawers.

Love Ya!

An Outfit & Final Tally On My July Challenges

Top - Guess

Pants - Guess

Shoes - New York Transit

I got an opportunity to wear jeans the other day as it was cool enough where we were.  Of course I wore my favorite pair of jeans.  I think I wore this outfit out to dinner.  This particular evening we stayed at a casino in the San Diego area and were eating at the buffet.  The food was okay but the decadence of it all was fabulous!

To recap what I challenged myself to do for the month of July:
             1 - two outfits per day - and use them to create an outfit binder
             2 - do my eye makeup everyday - documented in the outfit binder
             3 - practice putting on eyeliner everyday - documented in the outfit binder
             4 - exercise every morning and every night
             5 - a compromise with smoking cigarettes - no smoking before 8 pm and then only 1 - 5 times


Well how did I do?
             1 - I did this almost everyday.  I ended up with 79 outfits in my binder!!!
             2 - I also did this almost everyday.  I got 30 pictures of my eyes.
             3 - I also did this almost everyday.
             4 - This one I was less successful on; I probably have a 75% success rate.
             5 - Uhh, nope totally blew this one.

In the end I am fairly happy with myself.  I think I put too much on my list and in the future I think I will concentrate on one thing at a time.

I am really happy with the results of my outfit binder.  I used it to help me pack more efficiently for our last trip.  I took pictures of my outfits with me on my iPad and then had a clear idea of what I had with me to wear.  I also like the pictures of my eye makeup, but I should have taken better notes about what I did to document it better.  Overall I am pleased with my exercise routine.  I did more walks and yoga then I have in a long time.  More importantly I maintained my weight while eating a bunch a crap this month.  If you are interested in my weight, I am currently 156lbs and am 5'9".  Pretty good huh?

Smoking - well I blew that challenge, but in all honesty I don't think my heart was in the from the start.  I am not going to give up on this one, but I don't know yet when I am going to try again, maybe next week actually.  I'll let you know.

Another thing that I think these challenges did was to prompt me to do some other things.  I emailed my friend B about this website.  I also talked with both M and C about my crossdressing, which was rather unexpected.  These three people were also the first people outside of my wife and my sister that I have told. Another thing is that I created a clothes flip card device to help with choosing outfits.  I'll share more about my flip cards later.

Okay, too much already, gotta go!

Love ya!

July Challenge Outfits

Top - Max Studio

Shorts - Charlotte Russe

Shoes - Life Stride

Necklace - Target

Top - Guess

Skirt - Guess

Shoes - Nickles

These outfits were from 7/10.  I wore the top outfit driving.  We were travelling around California still during these pictures.  I chose this particular outfit to be comfortable on the drive but also to be comfortable while shopping.  During this particular leg of our trip we were going to be stopping by an outlet mall and I wanted something easy to take on and off in the dressing room.  The bottom outfit was a new one that I picked up at the mall.

I wanted to mention that while I do quite a bit of shopping I hardly ever buy things at retail prices.  One of my favorite things to do is to shop at outlet malls.  If you have not done that yet, I highly recommend it.

Top - Guess

Skirt - Guess

Shoes - Life Stride

Top - Guess

Tank - Guess

Pants - L.E.I

Shoes - Converse

These two outfits were from 7/11.  The top outfit is pretty much the same as the previous days but I did change the shoes.  Does that make for a whole new outfit?  I don't know.  That might be cheating.  What do you think?  I'm not sure.  But shoes do change how an outfit looks.  They can dress up and an outfit or dress it down.  The picture itself was taken at a pool I used to swim at as a kid.  I don't know if I ever mentioned this before, I probably have, but I spent about 8 years of my childhood swimming, year round.  So this pool was kind of important for me.  I like how I got a picture of while I was there dressed as a girl.

The bottom outfit was what I wore out that evening.  I already posted a picture and blog about that night.  It was when we decided to go to Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk.  It was a fun evening but a little chilly.  I enjoyed the outfit I chose to wear as it was very appropriate for the evening.

I'm still unable to get to my blog to post comments for another couple of days, just so you know.

Love Ya!

Update on July Challenges

Shoes - Converse

Do you like the shoes?  I do.  They are new and you can't see it in the picture, but the insides are lined with pink.  I purchased them from the Converse outlet store in Gilroy, CA.  Which is a great place to shop BTW.  I think they will be great girl shoes that I can also wear while dressed as a boy.  Which I think will be cool.

Okay, so a refresher about what my challenges for July are:
             1 - two outfits per day - and use them to create an outfit binder
             2 - do my eye makeup everyday - documented in the outfit binder
             3 - practice putting on eyeliner everyday - documented in the outfit binder
             4 - exercise every morning and every night
             5 - a compromise with smoking cigarettes - no smoking before 8 pm and then only 1 - 5 times

How have I done?
             1 - done, and actually more than I said I would.  I have not posted them all yet, but I will get there eventually.
            2 - Yes done.  I have not kept up on my documenting as well as I would like to.  I took pictures, but some days I did not write down what I put on.
            3 - Yes, done, but with the same concerns about #2
            4 - Nope.  I have lost track, but I think I have exercised at least once each day.
            5 - Nope, I've smoked less, but not to the extent that I would like to.


The last time  I updated my blog about this I mentioned that I started using Wellbutrin.  I am no longer doing that.  I did it the way my dr recommended and was fine until I got up to two pills per day.  At that point my stomach revolted.  It took me a few days to determine that the Wellbutrin was the problem, but I figured it out and stopped.  My dr said, yea that might happen.  So that did not work for me.  I think when I go for quitting agin I will do it as I have in the past.  In the past I really just will myself to do it and I have.  Eventually I have started again, but oh well.  Wellbutrin sucks in my opinion, of course I was taken the generic form though.


Thrilling I know.  So this post and the next few were written on Sunday, 7/15 but I have scheduled it to post later.  I am trying this out as I will be unable to get to my blog within the next few days or so.  I will publish any comments when I can.


Thanks!

More Outfits For My July Challenge

Tank - Espirit

Shorts - Mossimo

Black Shorts - Donna Karen

Shoes - A.N.A

Tank - Espirit

White Top - L.O.L Vintage

Shorts - Mossimo

Black Shorts - Donna Karen

Shoes - A.N.A

The above outfits were from 7/7.  The shorts I am wearing are actually quite short.  I feel as though they are a little too short for me to be comfortable in, so I have added the pair of black shorts to them.  The black shorts are a Spanx like garment.  The add a little extra to the length of the shorts and help me to feel more confident in them.  Out of the two outfits from this day I prefer the second one.

Black Top - Mossimo

Blue Tank - Mossimo

Shorts - Charlotte Russe

Shoes - Areosoles

White Top - Converse One Star

Belt - ?

Blue Tank - Mossimo

Shorts - Charlotte Russe

Shoes - Areosoles

The above two outfits are from 7/8.  In the bottom picture I have owned that white top for a couple of years but I don't think I have ever worn it.  Then it occurred to me, get a belt!  So I got the wide belt I am wearing, and it really helps to define my waist.  This really helps to give the shirt some shape and create more curves.

Top - Guess

Tank - Mossimo

Belt - ?

Skirt - Guess

Shoes - New York Transit

Necklace - Target

Tank - Mossimo

Dress - Guess

Shoes - New York Transit

The above outfits were from 7/9.  The top outfit was what I wore out to wine tasting.  The picture was taken in one of the wineries that we visited.  It is very similar to the outfit from the day before, except that it is a different shirt.  But the belt helps this shirt to also have good shape.

The bottom outfit was what I wore out to dinner that evening.  I had purchased it earlier in the day at a consignment shop.  If you have not gone to a good consignment shop it is time for you to go.  You can find some great clothes, at great prices, and shop owners that are more than willing to assist you with whatever you need.  I tried on the dress and purchased it.  Once I brought it back I looked to see who made it, and surprise, surprise, it is made by Guess.  Go figure.  Anyways, I really like it.  You can't see in the picture but it has zippers on the shoulders of it that add a nice little edge to it.

That is all for now.  I have much to update.  More outfits to catch up with posting, and an update to my July Challenges.

Have a good day!

More Outfits for July

Top - Guess

Blue Tank - Mossimo

Skirt - Loft

Shoes - Aerosoles

Top - Guess

Blue Tank - Mossimo

Skirt - Guess

Shoes -Aerosoles

The above outfits were for Thursday 7/5.  Personally I don't really like either choice.  I think they look okay, but I have issues with how they both look.  I like all the items individually, but I am not so sure about them together.  I have been pushing myself to try and find some tops that look good while tucked in.  So far I still am struggling to fill this gap in my wardrobe.  But it is interesting in taking these pictures, it is helping me to find gaps in my wardrobe and hopefully I will find something to fill it soon.

Shoes - Life Stride

Skirt - Loft

Tank - Loft

Shoes - Life Stride

Skirt - Loft

Tank - Mossimo

White Top - Myth NYC

This skirt exemplifies some of the problems associated with sizing.  The skirt is a size 4.  Can you imagine, a size 4?  I am a man and I am fitting in a size 4 skirt?  When I took the skirt into the dressing room, I originally took a size 12.  Skirt after skirt I went down and down in sizes until I ended up fitting in this one comfortably, at which point I realized it is a size 4.  So people, try on your clothes.  Don't just go by a size on a label.

In these two picture from Friday 7/6 the top picture shows what I look like with a spaghetti strap tank.  I often feel as though that type of top exaggerates  the width of my shoulders as well as the bulkiness of my arms.  What do you think?  Do you wear things that allow your shoulders and arms to be clearly seen?  Jules keeps telling me that many girls have arms the same size as mine.  I keep telling her that I know, but most do not have the muscle definition that I have.

What do you do about your shoulders and arms?  Do you show them off or try and keep them hidden?

Too Much - Outfits and More

Tank - Loft

White Top - Guess

Belt - I forget

Skirt - Guess

Shoes - Mossimo

Tank - Loft

White Top - Guess

Skirt - Guess

Shoes - Mossimo

These are two of my outfits from July 2nd.  I have been trying something new for some outfit pictures; I have been changing one piece of my outfit.  This has been interesting in pushing me to see different ways of being able to wear my items.  I think both outfits are nice but I really like the skirt in the lower picture.  Yes I know, you have seen it quite a bit by now.

Next...

Top - Guess

Skirt - Loft

Shoes - White String

Necklace - From a Winery

Top - Guess

White Tank - Mossimo

Skirt - Loft

Shoes - White String

Necklace - From a Winery

These outfits were from the third of July.  The necklace that I am wearing is not prominently displayed in the photos but I wanted to try and wear it.  I really like it, but I don't know if I have ever worn it out.   I hate when my stuff languishes away hidden in some drawer.  So I put it on and I think it looks good.  Can you tell, it matches my shoes?

Next...

Dress - Mossimo

Necklace - thrifted

bracelt - thrifted

Shoes - Connie

Dress - Mossimo

Necklace - thrifted

bracelt - thrifted

Shoes - Connie

Scarf - JC Penny

These outfits were from the 4th of July.  I am so happy about this dress.  It resembles very closely a dress that I threw away during my one purge about 10 to 15 years ago.  And it is also my one and only LBD.  I have not had one since I threw the other one away.  I like the addition of the scarf used as a belt in the second picture.  It really helps to define my skinny waist.  Because honestly, even with being in pretty good shape, this darn dress shows off every undesirable part.  The scarf really helps smooth things out.


Next...


Update on my July challenges:
 1 - outfits - yup kept up on those
 2 - eye makeup - yup done that
 3 - eyeliner - yup
 4 - exercise - every morning, but I have missed two evenings - boo - hiss
 5 - smoking - ah my nemesis - nope haven't kept up on that

So far I have done fairly well, but I feel bad about the smoking and missing two of my exercise times.  I will tell you that things were going well but then my wife, who has decided she would like be called Jules on my blog, was really struggling with quitting and we had a relationship meltdown.  Unfortunately that happens more often than either of us would like.  But I am still pursuing quitting smoking.  I have actually taken the step of talking with my doctor about it.  He gave me some nicotine inhalers and prescribed Wellbutrin.

Today I took my first ever anti-depressant pill.  Yup, Wellbutrin is an anti-depressant, which also happens to help people with the cravings to smoke.  My wife is doing it also.  We are hopeful that will also help us to get along better.

Next...

One last picture for you:

Liner - Lancome - gel liner - black fishnets

Shadow - Lancome - color design shadow - midnight rush 401

This one shows my attempt at creating a cat eye effect.  I like the look.  It helps to make my eye have more of an almond shape (translation - feminine.)

Alrighty, love ya!

Today's Outfit

Top - Merona - Target

Skirt - Grass Collection 

Shoes - A.N.A. - A new Approach

This skirt is one of my all time favorites but I have no memory at all of where I purchased it.  It is made out of a stretchy material, which is a mix of rayon, nylon, and spandex. The skirt is tight on me and because it pulls in at my waist and my knees it helps give the illusion of hips.  I do have some small hip pads in, but not that much.  I don't often choose a picture where I am standing straight on to the camera, but with this skirt I look pretty hippy in the picture above!

The top is one that I have tried to wear on several different occasions but each time I have put it on I have not been happy about how it looks.  I recently got some new small inserts for my bra and they really helped make the chest portion look much better.  There is something about this top that where the fabric crosses itself to make the V it kind of bunches up unless something fills it out nicely.

I was very happy being able to wear this top because it was hot today and the shirt has no sleeves.  Most tops without sleeves work against somebody with wider shoulders and larger arms but because this shirt has wider straps it helps to make the shoulder area look smaller then say spaghetti straps.

Today is the 1st of July if you have not noticed.  And I have decided on a few things to challenge myself on for this month:
             1 - two outfits per day - and use them to create an outfit binder
             2 - do my eye makeup everyday - documented in the outfit binder
             3 - practice putting on eyeliner everyday - documented in the outfit binder
             4 - exercise every morning and every night
             5 - a compromise with smoking cigarettes - no smoking before 8 pm and then only 1 - 5 times

I think that is what I am going to go with, but I may change things a little in the next couple of days.  I will try and check in with you all and update you with how it is going for me.  For today, lets see:
              1 - two outfits done, one of which is pictured above.
              2 - done, used clinique, teddy bear four color combo
              3 - done, tried liquid liner in black, looks okay
              4 - done, walking, weights, yoga
              5 - 1 cigarette so far, with probably one more before I go to bed.  Better than the 20+ I had yesterday huh?

Alrighty, I'll leave you with a couple of pictures of my eyes from today.

Challenge for July

Last July I challenged myself to wear a different outfit each day for the month.  Or at least to take at least one picture of an outfit each day.  Now that July is quickly approaching I am considering another challenge for myself.  Here are my choices so far:

- double the number of outfit pictures that I took last July
- do my makeup every day
- fully dress for as many full days as I can
- quit smoking
- write a blog entry everyday
- ??

Which one of the above do you think I should do?  Got any other suggestions?

Thanks!

I'll let you know what I decide on!

Good for Me!

Good for me because today is the final day of my personal challenge!  And I not only met my challenge I exceeded it.  I'm not sure how many outfits I actually did.  I think I should count.

Today's outfit:

Okay so I counted and it ended up being 42 different outfits.  I have to double check still that they were all different.  But I think they were.  Originally I did the challenge to combat my anxiety over choosing an outfit.  I thought since I felt anxious about it I would challenge myself to do one outfit per day for the entire month of July.  That would have made 31 outfits.  I actually outdid that by 11.  You know by the end I felt less anxious and now I actually have a much better idea about what looks good on me.

That's done.  What next?  Hmm I haven't thought of that yet. 

Hope you are well.

One more day to go

Today is the 2nd to last day of my July challenge.  I worked my little butt off today in the yard and my garage.  It seems as though I have not been out there for months.  Not too thrilling I know.

Here is today's outfit:

I hope you had a good day!

Eddie Izzard's Believe

I watched a documentary about Eddie Izzard today.  It is called Believe.  It is a very touching and funny movie.

Very small blog today, just to show you today's outfit:

I hope you are all doing well today.

Avoiding Homework Again

Where I am it is currently 4:24 and I am supposed to be trying to finish up my homework for my last class!!!  But alas, my brain is not on planet homework.  So here I sit typing(avoiding) what I need to finish!  I've been trying to work at it for over an hour and my brain is so sluggish I think I am trying to convince myself that it would be easier tomorrow.  What a nasty little way to avoid something I clearly don't want to write about because it would appear as though I can still write, as in I'm writing right now!  Okay so my brain is still functioning, it really does come down to what I want to do huh? 

Enough pontificating!

The outfit for today is:

Wow, I just counted, only three more outfit days left in the challenge.  Good for me.

Last Minute Outfit

I had other things to do today and I did not get around to trying on an outfit until this evening.  I went to my dresser, thought about a skirt I wanted to wear, one of my favorite Guess skirts.  Which actually used to be The Favorite Guess skirt, but I got another, if not two more.  I really like Guess.  I think it is a mental thing as to me it seems very girly, and I love when I can fit into their clothes.  Now that I think about it, another thing I like about Guess clothes is that they are very girly.  I know  I just repeated myself, but its true, I think of Guess as girly, but the clothes themselves are indeed girly.  The styling, the cut, the embellishments, I just love em!

Now the shirt is a different opinion for me.  I like the under the boob strap.  It squeezes me at my smallest point.  But I think it is a little flowey.  It tends to hang away from my belly and makes me look a little chunky.  Which I am not.  So I am unsure about the shirt.

Hope you had a good day.

Another day another picture...

Went up to Fresno today.  Had a good lunch.   I had a doctors appointment later.  The doctor ended up being a dink.  He did what I wanted but it was not exactly comfortable.  The only thing I did like about the experience was what I wore.  Him being a dink by the way had nothing to do with me being dressed as a girl.

I read yesterday about various trans people getting discriminated against.  Some very sad stories out there.  That is one thing that keeps me going.  I enjoy going out and being an intelligent unashamed ambassador of being a transvestite.  It helps me to sleep better at night.  How do you sleep?

What a great looking day out there, too bad I'm still doing homework!

It is Monday and here I sit, finding out another way to avoid my homework.  Hmm, unusual, no?  Oh well. 

Here is my outfit for today:

There are only 6 days left in my outfit challenge.  I'm doing pretty well with it.  But I'll tell ya, the anxiety about accomplishing it really hasn't diminished.  I still feel as though I won't be able to accomplish it.  It's foolish, I know, because it will actually be quite simplilstic.  But the feeling is still there. 

Have you ever listened to Dr. Laura Schlesinger?  I think she is off the air now.  She got fired or quit, I'm not sure, for supposedly saying some racist remarks.  Personally I've heard what was said and it really was not what people said it was.  It was typical Dr. Laura.  Anyways, she was very well known for telling whiny people who were explaining in great detail how they felt about a situation that she didn't really care in the least how they felt about something. 

There is right and wrong in the world.  Do what's right, regardless of how you feel.

Happy Sunday To You

Today was a homework day.  I've stayed home and worked on finishing my class.  I did manage to continue my outfit challenge. 

Yesterdays outfit - worn for driving home:

Today's outfit:

I really like this dress.  I saw it in the JCPenny flier a few months ago and I had to go get it.  I'm pretty sure I got it for about 50% off.  I love watching the ads and spotting a perfect little dress for me.  It is a little short though.  Also with my heels on it looks a little shorter.  But boy my legs sure do look long and lean.